THIS PROFILE PICTURE IS A PAINTING BY SAMUEL BAK. THE TITLE IS "INTERRUPTION". THIS BLOG IS ABOUT CHILDHOOD ABUSE, THE DESTRUCTION IT CAUSES AND HOW I FEEL A CONNECTION TO HOLOCAUST SURVIVORS.
Monday, March 24, 2014
HERE WE GO AGAIN
Monday, March 24, 2014
I had a
very rough weekend.I was supposed to go
to psychodrama all weekend but I only made Friday evening.We were doing an exercise call the social
atom.It is where you draw circles
around each other with the inner most circle representing “me”.Then you put the people in your life in
proximity to “me”.I realized that there
are so few people in my life.Everyone
else had so many people surrounding them.Some close and some outside of their circle.They were talking about feeling joy and
happiness.If freaked me out.When it was over, I left and totally
disintegrated.It is the same pattern I
go through every time something happens. I go into isolation and do not want to
be around people.So, I did not go to
the rest of the workshop.Now, I regret
not going.This is not a healthy way to
respond to life.One would think that
after all the years I spent in therapy and psychodrama I could react in a more
controlled way.That I could learn a
different pattern to use.
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