One definition of legacy is what someone feels, thinks and says when they hear your name. What are you doing today to build the legacy you want?(Author: Tim Belber)
While it may be the ‘greatest accomplishment’ to be myself ‘in a world that is constantly trying to make’ me something else…it does not always feel so great!! Also, by all means, I am not saying that I am always being ‘myself’. There are many times when I still live behind my mask. Sadly, until recently, I never could discern the difference between the two. I was not in touch, nor aware of the difference between the many masks I wear and the ‘real’ me. I still have amnesia when some of my 'masks' are living this life. Now that dear readers is living in a dissociated state. I have many ‘states’ (not united!) that deal with day to day living. For me to give my parts the name ‘masks’ seems a little harsh. They have their own names. But if I am honest, they are masks, albeit, protective masks.
It has been my experience that many people do not understand or believe in the diagnosis Dissociative Identity Disorder. Honestly, what you believe is irrelevant to me. I am not here to debate the topic. But, I am here to tell you it is alive and well, right here in “River City” (from the movie The Music Man). It is a survival technique. As I MIGHT have mentioned before—surviving is not thriving. While D.I.D. kept me ‘sane’ throughout my childhood, the chaos and suffering it caused as an adult seemed like INSANITY. However, several doctors have reassured me, much to my dismay that I am NOT insane. There have been many times when I felt it would be preferable to be psychotic and crazy. Crazy would be easier to accept and understand. I am not one to write down and share publicly the gory details of my abuse. I do not like the sensationalism of abuse. In my opinion, it is distasteful and tarnishes the sacredness of the subject. I find it very ironical that something so pernicious, caused by pure EVIL can be held sacred. But the topic of child abuse is and should be held in sacrosanctity.
Today, this is what I am doing for my legacy. I am shouting to anyone that will listen to my screams to STOP CHILD ABUSE. I am trying to bring awareness to the subject. People, please listen to me. It really occurs to more children than which you are aware. It is not some imaginary occurrence. It does not just happen every once in a while. If you suspect abuse you need to observe and determine if you need to report it. Children are precious. They are our future. We need to protect them and teach them self-respect, values, kindness, and caring. WE NEED TO LOVE THEM WITH ALL OF OUR HEARTS.
My legacy :
CHILDREN ARE THE MIRACLES OF LIFE AND SHOULD BE TREATED AS SUCH.
I WILL REPEAT THIS MESSAGE UNTIL THE DAY I TAKE MY LAST BREATH:
STOP CHILD ABUSE.
CHILD ABUSE MURDERS THE SOUL.