THIS PROFILE PICTURE IS A PAINTING BY SAMUEL BAK. THE TITLE IS "INTERRUPTION". THIS BLOG IS ABOUT CHILDHOOD ABUSE, THE DESTRUCTION IT CAUSES AND HOW I FEEL A CONNECTION TO HOLOCAUST SURVIVORS.
Monday, April 18, 2011
LOST in The Darkness of a Life....
This is a video that shows a little bit about D.I.D. POSSIBLE TRIGGER!!!
I will be sharing too. There is really nothing about my childhood I remember. I know there is reason for that. I know I have problems now, such as not being too close to someone, having that boxed in feeling of nowhere to go, up against a wall, a corner, in my space. All of those things I tend to go "out of body" if it happens as I try to get away. I wonder if there is more to me than meets the eye. Perhaps something since I last have been to therapy triggered all of these new feelings and things that are happening to me. Hence the need for insurance so I can get back on that path.
This time I am afraid. I know there is more I have to go through now. Maybe things I dont want to did up.
Chrystal, try not to be too frightened. If you can get a good therapist, they will help you go through whateve it is you need to go through. It may seem like that is easy for me to say, but it is not. I still get afraid of the past, my memories and myself. But, it can and will get easier and things eventually get better. Sometimes it just takes a long time. The journey is worth it.
Ohhhhhhhhh i am sharing thisssss..Thank you....As always...XOXOXOXO
ReplyDeleteYou are welcome Bongo. Take care. We are on this journey together. Thank you for your comment.
ReplyDeleteI will be sharing too. There is really nothing about my childhood I remember. I know there is reason for that. I know I have problems now, such as not being too close to someone, having that boxed in feeling of nowhere to go, up against a wall, a corner, in my space. All of those things I tend to go "out of body" if it happens as I try to get away. I wonder if there is more to me than meets the eye. Perhaps something since I last have been to therapy triggered all of these new feelings and things that are happening to me. Hence the need for insurance so I can get back on that path.
ReplyDeleteThis time I am afraid. I know there is more I have to go through now. Maybe things I dont want to did up.
Chrystal, try not to be too frightened. If you can get a good therapist, they will help you go through whateve it is you need to go through. It may seem like that is easy for me to say, but it is not. I still get afraid of the past, my memories and myself. But, it can and will get easier and things eventually get better. Sometimes it just takes a long time. The journey is worth it.
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