My favorite quote of all time is Alan Kay: ‘In order to predict the future, you have to invent it.’ I am all about inventing the future. Decide what you want the future to be and make it happen. Because you can. Write about your future now.
I had a gleam of light which flashed across my mind and I have not dismissed it: “Why, oh why do we have to decide what we want the future to be, write about it and make it happen?” What if we are not ready to think about the future? What if we have only recently arrived in the present? Should we not sit here, in the present, and just ‘be’ for a while?
Clearly, there is some resistance on my part about this topic. My future seems so uncertain it is frightening, if not impossible to glean anything from those thoughts. I feel as if I am in transition--emerging from the past into the present. The present is so new and exhilarating. Yet, this prompt wants to move me into the future. BAH HUMBUG!
So, okay…I give in!!! I will try to think about what I want for the future.
……MANY HOURS LATER…..
First and foremost, I want my future filled with happiness and contentment; not ALL the time, because life will always bring us trials to keep us on our toes, but for the most part. I want to be able to help other abuse survivors find these very emotions. My dream would be to have a large piece of property, somewhere in the mountains and build a safe COMMUNITY, for survivors. There are so many of us who are lost, with no idea how to pick up our lives and move on; with no skills to reenter the work force; with fear controlling each day. I envision building duplexes, small but comfortable. Or maybe it should be more like a retirement community. I DO NOT KNOW!! Much help would be needed with planning and executing such a dream.
But, I have a dream. It may seem to be a basic and a not very descriptive post, but I am not there yet. SO DO NOT PUSH IT! J For me, just to have a dream is the most important thing. FINALLY, I have a dream!
“To dream perchance to live.” (Davidicus Wong: A Hundred Days to Happiness)