TO THE WARRIOR.
You are a true, strong warrior.
I was very apprehensive on my way to see you. It is finally time for me to forgive myself for the transgressions I covertly inflicted on certain others. Today, you helped me accomplish what I have needed to do for many years. You have let me free my soul from the burden it has been carrying. At the time, I never realized that I could be hurting others who are like you…I did not even know you then. It never even crossed my mind that I was hurting anyone. But, now I have faced it and I have asked your forgiveness on behalf of those who may have been wounded by my actions. The reason that I felt the need to do this is because I know about some of the pain you went through because of someone like me. I believe you understood what I was trying to do. I needed for the universe to forgive me. Knowing that I could not go back to that time and ask all those ‘people’ to forgive what I did to them, I knew I could ask you and you would get the deeper meaning of that which I needed to be forgiven. Talking to you so honestly meant a lot to me. And the honesty with which you replied helped more that you will ever know. I would have never been able to do this with our previous T.
You are right ‘I’ have grown. But, I never thought that ‘I’ had any wisdom to offer. Thank you for saying I was wise. No one has ever told ‘me’ that before and it was a shock.
I do not know why I do not come out more. I suppose it is because of the ‘role’ I always played. I suppose, too, that on some level, I fear I will have to play that ‘role’ again. Even though that is not the case, the fear is still there. I never want to be that person again. And then there is the pain of the one I still ‘LOVE’. It is so confusing. I cannot make sense out of it. I have often wondered how and why I could possibly ‘love’ him. So, when I do see you again, I want to talk more about this. It is something that I really need.
So, thank you. Teach me to be a warrior…please.
From: ‘A line’ the ‘ex-‘ ‘ex’ ‘M ine’